Thank you for the recession so that I can shop 'till my hearts content and not have to spend much money! Also, thank you for having a population that the majority of is obese so that I:
a) feel better about my current weight
b) affirm the path that I am on and continue to strive for my GW
Consumption for today:
1 Grande skinny caramel Mach. from Starbucks (no sugar, fat free milk)
1 cup french onion soup broth
1/2 cup orzo
1/2 cup mixed greens with feta cheese and 1 tbs no fat south beach dressing
10 or so grams of steak (family dinner forced to eat it, yuck!)
On the other hand I took my dog for 2 walks and spent most of the day shopping and walking around the mall. I also went swimming for about half an hour so I feel pretty good. Also, I have managed to cut down my smoking to only one ciggy a day. However, this is fully out of necessity as my ma doesn't know I smoke and would wring my neck if she found out. It's my dog and my little secret. Thank god he can't talk or I would be up shit creek without a paddle. And probably banished to a nunnery (and not the fun and crazy "SEND THEE TO A NUNNERY" Hamlet type ether).
Ahh well, he can't so I'm saved.
In sad news, one of our ana sisters blog was found by her family and from what I know deleted, I wish her all the luck in the world and I hope she knows that I support her fully with whatever choices she makes regarding her family and her body. Good luck Jamie, times are tough now but keep your chin up and everything will be ok!
As I mentioned in the previous post, my darling C is gallivanting in Mexico with his girlfriend. I asked myself if wishing Swine Flu upon her was mean, the conclusion was yes. With my luck she would contract it, give it to him and then in turn infect me. So I will refrain from evil swine thoughts, however it won't stop me from sabotaging the way he feels about her and continuing to woo him with naughty e-mails and text msgs.
Any hints for some naughty things to say to him? I know someone does ;)
In other news, my computer is riddled with viruses (I guess that means I have to stop looking at porn, damn!) and has been nothing but a pain in the ass all day. Getting messages about things I have no idea about, pressing enter, probably only making things worse. I think I've cleaned most of them but god only knows. I hate technology.
Side note: I just squished a bug on my computer screen. Fucking gross, but perhaps ironic?
I'm wearing C's sweater and it smells like him. Slightly maddening but at the same time the most comfortable I've felt in a long time.
Stay strong! Think thin!